Starting Over!

It's the first post this year and I have decided to not write lots of things that happened during the last quarter of 2024 in a separate post. And it's March anyway, I have skipped writing posts in this blog since last October. The latest post was about Seunghan's departure from the group and this blog I guess no longer being indexed very well by Google.

First thing first, it is Ramadan month. Two days has passed actually, but I haven't yet started to consistently pray or change my lazy habit. Yes, I did walked yesterday for 6K steps but I am not sure with today. At least yesterday I have been productive by editing a vlog and I wish to do that again today. Therefore, I chose to write this blogpost first. All I wish for this Ramadan is I can change as a better person, this is a recurring wish every year and I couldn't see if I really change into a better person or even worse? I am struggling at keeping a consistent effort to do sports, it has been decreasing since last year. I also have lost control of calorie intake and prayer. I have been so absent in praying and it made me think: what if I die without putting any single effort for redeeming those lose prayer times? I keep thinking about death lately. And think about what if the world ends but I am still the same old me that is not closer to the one that gives me life.

Second, one of the reasons why I left this blog for too long is there was a problem occur earlier this year. Google Domain was being migrated to Squarespace without me knowing, resulting in unknown transaction on my card and I asked the bank to cancel it. However, it turned out it was the payment for my domain and I should have done nothing to keep the blog running. Since I asked to cancel transactions which I discovered later was for my blog domain, I request for the bank to pass through the transaction. But it resulted in my domain is no longer available. So I had to go back and forth then doing a double payment to activate this domain. It was such a pain in the ass. I spent almost a month to get everything back to normal. And I was exasperated that I cursed why should Google migrate all its domain to Squarespace?

Anyway lesson learned: just double check transaction and make sure your domain stay updated. 

It also happened back in 2017-2018, this blog lost its .com domain because I forgot to turn on the auto-pay option to prolong the domain use. Gladly, I still got the co.uk domain to be used and maintained for this blog.

Third, I have been going to a lot of places for the last quarter of 2024 as I have mentioned above. In November, I went to Korea again for Sungjin's solo concert and I haven't yet write it on this blog. Including in December when I took sabbatical and went again to Korea for The Present 2024. I also had decided what to do in my work environment. For this year, I haven't even set any goals or reflect back through the 2024. I feel like my life has been a super mess! I made it myself tho.

I have lots of homework in relationship, work, spiritual things, and etc. And I felt my brain has become dull because I have written less than I should. Anyway, that's it for the first post in 2025 written on March. I just wish that I still have the fiery passion in me to keep writing consistently on this blog although nobody reads it anymore.